new chapter, who knows? 新的章節？

  Had been almost one and half years. yes, it is a long time, somehow. I'm kinda understood now. I'm kinda snapped from it now. Even though is not 100%, but at least it is a big step. Burned everything includes memories, because I wouldn't restricted by something meaningless and worthless anymore.

  It is time to forgive myself, and let myself off. At least I decided, I will do that.

  

  This is end of the chapter, lets the new chapter begin.

  失去了守護的價值 有些東西變得沒意義

  改變還有失去如今 對我不過是過往雲煙

  不是原諒你所作的 而是寬恕自己自虐著

  用火焰燃燒了糾結 炙熱慶祝著我的重生

  一年多以來的拖延 就讓我來寫下休止符

  結束這篇痛苦章節 揭開人生全新的篇章

  我做的事我從沒後悔，我的人生我來決定。 

Short Hair

Is an year 2011's song but I really like the lyrics and the beats, it's sweet and with some bitter when you flashed back the memories because of this song.

たくさん失う　時がながれゆく
それでも僕は、君を待ってる
I had losing so many things Even the time had past
Until now I'm still waiting for you
僕はいま君のことだけ　僕はいま君のことだけ
大切なものだけが大切ならいいのに
なぜだろう　君のことだけ　浮かぶのは君のことだけ
君の短い髪が揺れて隠れた横顔　表情
Now I'm just a part of you, Just a small part of you
That's enough if those memories can be just been appreciated like this.
But why, your face just keep appearing in my mind, I'm just can't stop to miss you
The face that covered by your short hair, and your expression

Btw, Honda Tsubasa in this MV just cute.

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愚人節

四月一日 
我最痛苦的一天
被你用言語狠狠傷的那瞬間
愛或不愛 由你一人決定
我 只能聽從命令

沒了感覺
是你留下的一句
否定我為你所做的一切事情
你說你會珍惜 所有回憶
對我來説卻是施捨的同情

愚人節 那諷刺自我的季節，
以爲的幸福被你摧毀，
就像笑話般被你推翻，
我的愛 對你來説不算什麽
你的自由 勝過我給的一切

請告訴我，一切不是真的。

April Fool

  Had been one year, the feeling just as strong as before.
  I had thought I already numb for that, I thought I had forgotten that,
But, the cracking sound I heard from my left chest, it seems repeated very day.
  The day is coming again, that's fast, I had brought to hell, for a year.
Everyday, I thinks of you,deal with hate, love, sadness, pain.
  No one can understand this feeling, no one know what I'm feeling of.
I remains alone, back to be a loner, at that dark corner, licking the wound you gave, counting all the memories we had.
  I was hoping everything just actually an April Fool joke, even though that will just a dream, forever.

梦想再大 你还是看不见我

梦想再大，你还是看不见我。
  你不会懂 伤口，真的会痛。

You never know, or never care, I'm still in pain.
    No matter how much I done, I can't change anything.

William Shakespeare: Love is merely a madness.

我，也许，真的疯了。

No, You wouldn't know

  No matter how someone laughed happily in the day, doesn't mean that he actually mean it.
  No, you wouldn't know how suffer and lost are he in his heart.

  When you just happy of your live, get the"happiness" that you think you meant to be, you never know that it might be "tragedy" for someone else.

  Some people got everything but act like don't have anything, because he/she can't see and not appreciate the treasures he/she owned now.
 
  Yes, you wouldn't know.

Lost

Human that lost and unsure his own feeling, human that unable to figure out what he really want.
Phobia of love? Or something else. I'm unsure. I'm just a human that forget how to figure out my feeling. That forgot my true self.